Self image...

  So as of lately I have gotten in this really bad habit of not doing so well with the whole seeing myself as some others may see me. So as of today i have taken a challenge from one of my uncles to find one picture of me that i like and say at least on thing about it that i like, *note i do not have to post all of them...* A few years back i went to a camp with my ward. The theme of the camp was *FBI* Finding the beauty inside. As i have grown and let the lessons of that camp fade into my memory, I have forgotten to take what i learned seriously. I learned things at camp like no one person is the same, no one is a better you then .. you! although the theme was finding beauty INSIDE, they also focused on the outside apperance. This has been a struggle for me for many years. I have been skinny, i was a skinny kid, as far was 5th grade, then i started to put on weight like it was going out of style. pound after pound kept creeping its way on to me and around 8th grade i started to get into some really bad habits, I hated myself, the way i look, act, dressed.. it was all embarassing to me. depressing, I was one of the kids who would laugh at the jokes at school and come home and cry in my room for hours because of how i felt.  Lucky for me i had two absolutely amazing friends who saw right through that and loved me anyway. ... To this day i don't know why they love me but for some reason or another they do. both have been in my life for at least 8 years now and have reminded me among others now. that i am important and that it doesnt matter what i think of myself they love me they care about me. as a friend often tells me "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder"  Well The reason i tell you this pathetic little story is because for the first time today it was brought to my attention that one of my friends that has been there for me through thick and thin, whom i have been jealous of her looks since i met her, felt the exact same  way i do. I have always thought of her as one of the most beautiful people i  know. and here she was thinking that she was not pretty enough, ... WHAT?!?!?!  I would have never guessed.  I dont know what to say/do now because all these years i have been jealous of her she has had the same feeling toward me. So i guess it is all to say that its true, Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. and maybe one of these days i will see what my friends/family see in me. but most of all i may see one of these days myself as God himself sees me.
P.S.
I like this picture 1 cause i was wearing a beautiful purple dress, and two i almost look skinny in it and last but not least i was hiding a water balloon behind my back and threw it at my sister after she put the camera down. YAY

More photography...

Ok so the more I do photography the more i absolutely fall in love with it. I love to be able to show the world through my eyes.. These are some that i took of one of the newest additions of my family. she was 17 days old in these pictures. this is my happy little St. Patricks Day cousin.

Ok and now for easter,

Our family got together the Saturday before Easter to dye eggs with all the cousins... *Minus a few* There were about 14 kids there... give or take a few... plus my aunts, uncles, grandparents. ya there were a lot of us. One thing i love about Easter with my moms family is the love that is just genuinely shared between all of us. Everyone gets along everyone loves each other, we are pretty much a picture perfect LDS family. *not saying we are perfect, just saying it has a strong religious base..* Love my family.

CATS!!... behind the set...

 
So this year Viewmont High is doing the musical "Cats." So far this musical has been very time consuming and very demanding. Which is ironic because for the first half of the show, very little is done backstage.. the only thing I do is pull two curtains, and lights. Its easy, the solid black curtain goes up to kinda set the scene and then the see through curtain "scrim" goes up. and then we catch a flying cat, and thats about it till the curtains come back down for intermission. 2nd act however, EVERYTHING HAPPENS AT ONCE!!! I have to get three fog machines going all at the same time... easy right?!? not when one is on stage right one is in the middle of stage and the other is on stage left. not to mention i have to make the lift go up and bring down the Stairs "heaviside layer" all at the same time.... then bring the lift down.. If i can do this everynight like i did on tuesday i will be very happy with myself. Actually its more of a very proud and accomplished feeling, Its one feeling that nobody understands until they run a show and make it work, yes the applause is usually for the cast, but i take it as they are clapping for me too. *cheesy i know. but hey it works..* that is what is happening back stage if you want to see more of the cast and what they are doing ... go here    http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?ref=profile&id=587567868#!/group.php?gid=305209469002&ref=mf

is there hope..?

So i asked my friend who runs marathons almost monthly for some running tips. Here is what she told me to do to start. ...

# Before you start your workouts, make sure you warm up properly by walking for 5-10 minutes. You should always end your workout with a cooldown.
# Week one: Walk for 6 minutes, then jog at an easy pace for 1 minute. Repeat 3 times. Aim for three sessions with that same sequence for week one.
# Week two: Walk for 5 minutes, then jog for 2 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Aim to do three sessions in week two.
# Week three: Walk for 3 minutes, then jog for 4 minutes. Repeat 4 times. Aim for four sessions in week three.
# Week four: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 5 minutes. Repeat 4 times. Shoot for four of those sessions in week four.
# Week five: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 8 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Do four of those sessions in week five.
# Week six: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 9 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Try to do four sessions for week six.
# Week seven: Walk for 1 minute, then jog for 11 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Do four sessions this week.
# Week eight: Congratulations on making it to week eight! For your first run this week, try walking for 5 minutes to begin and end the workout, and run for 20 minutes in between. By the end of the week, try to run for 30 minutes without stopping.

Crafty and domestic...

So I am not the typical girlie girl, I would much rather be playing sports or camping, hunting, fishing, riding four wheelers etc.. then being all cute and crafty. Most of the girls in my extended family are very creative and crafty and usually my sister and i just talk about how fun it would be to have that kind of talent. but alas everything has a season, and yesterday we were crafty.... thanks to a new friend of mine... lol. anyway here is some pictures of what we did.

                                                   Ok so here i am being good, minding

                                                   my own busniess, and SNAP, FLASH,

                                                                  ... i was framed...

Its his foot print

See i can be creative

I am holding the "D" in my hand

Remember When It Clicked Photography...

So I have been trying to think of what to call my photography prints and studio... when I get one... Yesterday when I was editing some pics I had taken ... It CLICKED! lol I am going to call my Photography "Remember When It Clicked Photography" Here are some samples of my work. =)

This is my little brother, lovingly refered to as Bear..

And this is my Little sister....

Back at it again.

Karate has always been a huge part of my life, I dont know who I would be today without it. I was looking back through some pics and remembering starting my current study of kung fu kempo karate... I started this style of karate when I was 12 years old, ... 

This is me in April of 2009 as a second degree Brown belt

13 and a Purple belt, working on my kicking skills. lol

My Friend Rachelle and I when we were 13 doing two man fist set,

Me at 15 and at Blue with a Green stripe, learning how to use wepons.

My current rank.. 2nd Degree Brown @ a tournament

I got  1st place in this part of the tournament. I believe I was doing Kata 5...

I love to fight, sparring is one of my strong points in karate. I am often accused of being to happy when I fight, It is an amazing feeling though to get out there fight knowing that nobody is going to be injured, to have fun and learn different styles of fighting. ... I love karate!